Hello kids. It's me, your mom.
I just wanted to apologize to you guys, as I messed-up a lot today. We had not even been awake for an hour, and I could have already won "the worst mom of the day" award. It was time for you, #2 and your sister to get your coats on and leave for the bus. Yet, instead of getting ready, you declared that you didn't like the pants which you were wearing and stated that you were not going to go to school. I got quite frustrated and impatient with you, as I heard the clock ticking away. I'm sorry #2. I should have been more understanding and a lot more gentle with you. You and your sister left for school, without turning around to say "good-bye" like you always do, and I laid on the floor begging for His forgiveness and help.
Then it was time to get you younger five your breakfast. Baby girl, you were whining for a banana, which was non-existent as you had devoured them the day before. Twin #1, you were screaming for me to wrap you doll baby in a blanket, and wouldn't take "not right now" for an answer. Twin #2, you were extremely disappointed that I was making you oatmeal for breakfast and you were not at all hesitant at letting me know that. (Although later, you devoured your oatmeal, asking for seconds! But anyway...) Big boy, you were busy asking me questions about this and that, and baby boy, you were screaming because you just wanted me to hold you! Well, I got a little weary of all the noise and commotion, and raised my voice at you all. I'm sorry. I should have been more patient with you guys, knowing that as soon as your tummies were full, you would all be a lot happier.
And so went the day.
Sometimes I just get weary of all the noise... and the mess. Oh the mess. Your mom, who thrives on order and cleanliness, definitely gets weary of the mess!
But I want to let you all be kids... and not expect you to act like adults... because, well, you ARE kids!
You know, there are times when I confide in your papa that I have no idea how to be a mom! I mean, really! What am I doing?!?! It is in the Lord's strength alone that I can be a mother to you all. And if I do anything right, it is only by His grace. I just so desire to be the mom that each of you needs me to be, and I know that I am constantly falling short. So, I'm asking for your forgiveness for when I mess-up (which is quite often, you know). And please, be patient with me as I am continuing to learn what the Lord is teaching me through you all.
I love each of you to the moon and back.
2 comments:
Love you Christy! You are amazing... I feel this way with 3 so I can't even imagine how you do it!
Oi. How did you know what kind of day we're having? Thanks for being honest.
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